Thank you Shelly for your thoughtful reply. Thank you for the book recommendation and for taking the time to share your process – it does resonate. I like the image of putting your “best player forward” and appreciate the reminder that the only way out is through – even if that feels extremely challenging at times. This is really good work, the only work really, worth doing from my POV. Ignore or embrace, the lessons will keep coming, and after so many years of pain and struggle, I’d prefer to be a consious co-creator. I don’t know who said this first but I really like it: “I haven’t come this far to have only come this far.” Very grateful for this website to be able to resource any time. I’m in, and look forward to the journey with people like yourself. Thanks again for reaching out. Much appreciated. Love, Barbara