This not a reply but an introduction. My name is Jamie. I have a question for anyone who is interested in giving me feedback. I’ve been in a long distance relationship for the last 18 months and for the longest time I was trying to figure out why it has been so difficult for me. I most recently had a breakthrough and realized the long distance relationship triggered a painful side of me. I was abandoned as a child and every time my partner would fail in getting back to me with a text, or a call, I would find myself getting upset. I would feel rejected, my heart would race, and my body would get hot, I felt like I was experiencing anxiety. I am amazed at how overwhelming the feeling is and how painful it is to face the cause of my pain. I decided to take a break from the relationship because the feelings were consuming me physically and I was not responding in a healthy manner. I so much want a spiritual relationship with him but when I have explained what is getting triggered inside me he said I was thinking of myself, I was trying to change him, and I’m different now. “When is the other Jamie going to come back?” I love him, and didn’t want to have a negative impact on our relationship so I decided to step back for personal healing. I feel like I’m being authentic because I stepped back to face my pain and heal. He didn’t want me to but I was really struggling with the triggers. Did I do the right thing by stepping away from the long distance relationship?