About a week ago I decided to act couragously and end a very unsatisfactory, exclusive relationship. I thought I was just being a weanie, and was afraid of hurting his feelings. After summoning the courage and speaking my truth, we amicably parted ways. A couple days later, I realized the real truth. I was holding on to this relationship out of fear of being alone and fear of loneliness. From this fear I felt a subtle depression and anxiety. The pain in my heart center felt aweful and correlated with the anxiety I felt. I also discovered that these are frightened parts of my personality that I have been trying to avoid my whole life. What is so weird about not dealing with it head on, is that I suffered anyway. I suffered by going through the school of hard knocks. I learned that I can face my fear, as aweful as it feels, and choose Trust instead. Trust that the Universe has my back, and I will not only be o.k., I will triumph by living in awareness and authenticity.

With Love,
Rebecca Smith