Hello Gladys and Pam,

I very much appreciate both of your shares. With my intention to become and to experience acceptance in my life, I am often times finding that I am becoming aware of my thoughts and the correlation of the accompanying pain in my chest area and solar plexus. The pain is very familiar and something that I experience on a daily basis for the greater part of most of my days. Overnight, this past night, at my workplace, I had the familiar pain very often. I am beginning to recognize that some thoughts that I did not recognize as being judgments, most likely are. I have a long held pattern of fps that believe that I must “look into/think about everything”. I believe that this is based in my making some type of judgment about all sorts of things. Judgments, comparisons, analyzations, all of them, essentially judgments. And inner arguments/judgments with myself. At work last night, I listened to my thoughts and felt the corresponding pain within my body. I did my best to move into acceptance, with brief moments of peace coming through. I found it very difficult to let go of the familiar thought patterns. It seemed though that while focusing on my inner experience, I believe that I was more accepting, (and open to), of my co-worker and I am wondering if that may have been due to my intention to take responsibility for myself throughout the night. I worked to consciously be open with my dementia residents of long term care in my workplace. I tried to consider/experience whether I was care-taking them as I provided care for them. I have a quite long drive on a highway while traveling to and from work. At night, while I travel to work, I really enjoy the darkness as it provides me with time to look deeply into my intention to grow spiritually and to connect with the deeper energies of Love in the Universe. Last night, I had thoughts of turning on my radio, but resisted doing that so that I could continue participation with my travel meditation. I believe that the summation of last night’s time of meditation and intention setting really assisted me throughout my night at work. Upon arrival at home this morning, and as I got out of my car, I was filled with unanticipated thought/joy of how much I enjoy my job! I am unable to share with you how that felt in my body as I forgot to “look”, but I was so excited to experience the sudden thought of appreciation and joy for my job 🙂

Thank you, Gladys for your sharing about fps of shame, unworthiness, and feelings of not being “good” enough. These are familiar fps that I often experience and need to work through while setting intention to create authentic power. I am grateful for your “sharing” experience with the young woman with whom you connected in Nigeria and grateful that the Universe has brought you many blessings from your working through difficult times with use of your courage.

Thank you, Pam for the reminder that my commitment to work to become accepting in my life and to challenge my fps that are judging are commitments that I must work with in every moment throughout everyday.

Love to all,
Cindy

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