Eric, my intention is to express gratitude and appreciation for your spiritual partnerhip. The interaction we shared at the Journey is continuing to support me now. I am going deeper into feeling the FP of my personality that creates distance with others and doesn’t want to open up and be aware of my connection. I remember in our sharing that night saying to you how threatened my FP was feeling, not really of you, but what you were triggering in me. I am more aware now how much I indulge a FP of my personality that feels unsafe, that i have to keep a wall up, distance. It reminds me of being sexually abused as a child and I seem to have had a wall of fear up since then….keeping my heart closed. My hands our shaking, my throat is tight, my solar plexus is tight and my breath is shallow. My thoughts are of fear, “what if I die if I open up and relax my energy?” Like a panic feeling at the thought of relaxing. I know this is a FP of my personality and it’s intention is to keep my heart closed and under the illusion of being disconnected. It is so familiar to me. I am sharing this with you again to thank you for that night and your support as a spiritual partner. Because I was able to see this pain in me then, it helps me to see it clearly now so I can continue to challenge this FP in me and open my energy.
Love,
Kristen