Hello Eric.
We are all on this journey to find peace and joy sometimes we slip. It is important that when we slip we dont fall into the victum and judgment roll on ourselves, that will take you deeper into the rabbit hole if I may.
When you feel this exploitave energy come up you need to stop and look at what the cause of this reaction inward is and then take some time to contemplate on the effect it has on you and what it will cause if you act it out. It is as destructive expressing it or not if you cant use your authentic power to figure it out.
The law of relativity is a great source of study and cause and effect also. Transmuting the energy by changing the way you look at it through the eyes of another (using relativity} can often be a tremendous help.
I hope this helps and you find your way back to being strong and healthy and engage the authentic power into this turmoil.
Namaste