I’m noticing that I was very attached to being able to attend this year’s Journey to the Soul event. It appears that the only thing that could “stand in my way” would be my school schedule for the summer. I had been hoping that I could take mostly online classes and attend the event without missing important material. And while it’s still possible that this could be the case, based on last summer’s available courses, it seems it’s unlikely.

I’m noticing a heaviness in my abdomen, even a feeling of hunger, and a fluttery feeling in my solar plexus. And thoughts about wanting to be included, be part of the group, and that my inclusion is contingent on being at the event. Maybe my intentions for wanting to be at the event were more fear based.

Staying with the sensations in my body was very challenging as I received the information about summer term. I wanted to shut down and withdraw. I’m still staying with it.

I’m now noticing thoughts of appreciation that this came up! The Universe is giving me an opportunity to examine my current intentions, which revolve mostly around a need to feel included. I love that I get to look at this part of myself that believes I’m separate if I don’t attend. Wow!!

After some time just being in my body and feeling the sensations, I notice I don’t have to believe that I’m separate, even if I’m not included in the sense that I won’t physically be there. And my joy doesn’t have to depend on going. I’m free to enjoy myself in either case.

Feeling my heart rate go down, my abdomen open, and my shoulders loosen.