Since returning from the Journey I have become more aware of how I have been isolating myself from social engagements. And actually engaging on the forum just this afternoon, one of my spiritual partners opened my eyes to the fact that it has really been some of my frightened parts that have been isolating me from social situations. With this new found awareness, i am realizing that I have been isolating even more since returning from the Journey bc new FP’s fear being in situations where it is more diffifult for me to create authentic power. FP’s find it easier to avoid situations all together rather than being present and choosing responsibly.

Right now, I have frightened parts of my personality feeling very angry that I have a work function tonight. It is something I have been putting off for a few weeks that I cannot put off any longer – seeing my bosses new apartment with another co-worker. FP’s of my personality feel put upon, angry, in scarcity of how little time I can dedicate to me, and in sheer terror about how to stay present and create authentic power with my co-workers, major superiority about the fact that they are so NOT spiritual partners…I could go on and on. But in the interests of getting back to work….I am setting my intention in writing here to stay present at this get together and to pay close attention to my body’s signals and to leave this get together at a time that feels right so I can take care of me and to choose from loving parts of my personality as much as I can. Any support from others is greatly appreciated.