I am always making choices. When I am unaware of active FPs the choices continue but their quality diminishes and consequences experienced as negative increase. However, the experienced pain derived from the negative consequences is not always easily tied back to the active FP. A little like a fish living an entire life in polluted water unable to uncover the source of it’s health problems…oblivious to the fact that the water is polluted.

That has been me in certain areas of my life. I’ve made so many choices to keep people distant but completely unaware that I was choosing to do so (active FP). I do experience sadness at the thought of how long I continued to make those choices. I believe making the choice of love includes being vulnerable to receiving love. And doing the latter implies challenging FPs around what people would find if I allowed myself to be vulnerable.

The hope of AP is that I always have the choice to change.

Thx,
Eric