Hi,

Was there a call on December 15th? If so, did you receive the reminder email that provides call time and personal PIN? I had received that email prior to every other call and when I didn’t see it come in I mistakenly assumed that there was no call today. It was of course my mistake not to check the dates in the forum but I had gotten used to the emails.

anyhow just curious.

Thx,
Eric

Thanks David.

First I felt a tremendous amount of pain in my gut and chest. I really wanted to make the call as I felt I needed the support. The thoughts were: “on no, I missed the call.” Then I realized that in the morning I had specifically checked my email to see if the “reminder email” came in and because it did not I assumed there was no call. Then I felt more tightness in my upper body and neck. I became angry with the thoughts of “hey, that reminder email was not sent. what the heck?”

After calming down I asked myself, “what choice can I make now?”. Of course I missed the call and that was over so I knew I can listen to it in archive. However, I thought maybe I wasn’t alone in terms of people relying on receiving those “reminder emails” to know when upcoming calls were. Maybe SOTSI didn’t realize that the reminder emails weren’t sent out. But maybe for some reason I just didn’t get it. That’s when I decided to place the upon post. To see at least if it was just me or everyone else. And if the latter I assumed that SOSTI would want to know about if they hadn’t realized it.

Thanks,
Eric

Hi David,

I calmed down when I accepted that there wasn’t much I could do to change the fact that I missed the call. That thought calmed me down. Next I thought that maybe I wasn’t alone on relying on the ‘reminder emails’ so thought it would be helpful to share that with SOTSI in case they were unaware of the email not going out (if it didn’t actually go out). So, I guess there was a loving part that came over me and helped me to chose acceptance.

btw, did you actually receive that reminder email? I am not sure if somehow my got deleted or went into a spam filter even though I did not find it there.

Thanks,
Eric

Oh cool. Thx for the update as I wasn’t sure if somehow my email got caught in a spam filter of mine.

Eric

Hi Pam,

I am here in the hospital with my wife Pamela on Christmas Eve where we have been discussing the decision to remove the life support for my mother in law. I also found myself starting to cry and decided to check in with my energy centers. Although it seems very appropriate to mourn at this time, I had an insight that what I was experiencing was a familiar frightened part related to loss. When I realized that my sadness was about me and not about my family, I was able to shift my perspective.

Love,

David