Session 2 was timely for me. The triad with Cindy and Randy was affirming. As Linda and Gary spoke about getting caught up functioning and then in our small group conversation, I realized that how easily I slip into human doing instead of “being”. And then become inpatient with myself for forgetting to consciously set my intention. So we spoke of compassion for others but also for ourselves.
Off to Saudi Arabia in a week or so and have received some wonderful guidance from Lucien, and am reading a book about understanding Islam. Many of the beliefs are the same as other religions. Mayan prophecy speaks about all religions uniting?

In setting my intention to proactively cultivate loving parts of my personality between this call and the next, it has been amazing to see what FP’s have surfaced for me. The very first FP that I became aware of as a small child was judging myself for coming to earth. This FP thoughts are of judgment, rage, and guilt. My entire body feels very tense, energy tight and pulled into the center. My forehead feels tight. I indulge judging myself and feeling guilty for believing the limited persepectives of the FP of my personality. The intention of the FP is to keep me believing in the stories of my FP’s and indulging rather than being with this pain with the intention of healing it. To proactively cultivate the loving parts of my personality I am choosing to laugh at the fact that I have been believing I am here on Earth, rather than seeing it as the illusion of the FP of my personality…..enjoying this experience, bringing joy into the moment, cultivating knowing I experiencing this to share my gifts and be of support…to Love. Bringing awareness of Stillness into the moments I remember supports me with perceiving the moment rather than judging it.
Love,
Kristen Richardson

I’ve had a significant FP come up and the timing of it I find fascinating. I was recently very excited to feel how I have had an FP that was afraid of engaging in relationships. I had intellectually known it but I really felt it and as a result made a committment to open up to others (challenge it). Since then I have met 4 neighbors. It has been very nice going for coffee and dinner with them. Then suddenly out of the blue I have become terrified with regards to the potential side effects of a certain medication I have been taking for the past 3 years that is essentially not necessary for me to be taking. I imagine it sounds ridiculous but the fear has been consuming me. I am meeting with my doctor in an effort to discuss a healthy approach to weaning off the medication but the entire experience & timing of it strikes me as ‘interesting’. I never once worried about the side effects of this medication for 3 years; then I experience an openness to others which was new for me and then completely out of the blue I became paranoid about the potential side effects. I did not see an article, news report or even have a conversation with anyone about this medication. I just had the intense fear pop into my head one night when I arrived home. And the FP has been very powerful. I can feel the knots in my stomach, tightness in my chest, my neck and head. The associated thoughts are, “oh no, I may have caused long-term damage.”, “oh no, it may impact my ability to have an intimate relationship” (known side effects are mostly sexual). And I have been feeling drawn back towards older behviours of wanting to manipulate & control people to ‘ease/temporarily numb’ the FP.

love,
Eric