I have not recently read the chapter on Karma but appreciate the posts that everyone has written. After last month’s call, I thought about responding here on the community board about someone’s call-in to the conference call. The thoughts of the person were that how could they possibly have ever treated someone else in the same manner in which they were abused as a child. Frightened parts came up in me and I allowed them to keep me from responding. I have posted once before about the abuse that I incurred as a child but since then I have been reluctant to bring it up again because knowledge of the abuse could still (after many decades) bring pain to some people who are not aware of its existence. Being able to talk with others has always been a problem because the situation was held private ever since its beginning. Now, I feel that I still may be wiser to continue thus because how else can I ever tell some others close to me about this website if they were to read such things as I reach out to spiritual partners here? What I can share is that I too have felt in the past that how could I possibly have committed such acts in a previous lifetime? But at the same time, I began to consider the possibility of reincarnation and karma from the age of thirty, (I’m now 54). By the time I was thirty, I had already considered in quite a bit of depth, the type of child that I had been. I don’t wrestle with this question so much now. I accept the fact that I am responsible as a soul for what occurred. I admit though, that there is still work in me to be done because I still don’t like this fact. Which means that I am still uncomfortable with this. I am currently trying to be more compassionate with my former abuser on a heart level. About a year or more ago, we were having a conversation and this person expressed fear of “Hell”. I cannot recall my responses but I do know that I was trying to come from a place of compassion and the conversation helped him to find some relief from his fear. A few months ago I was at this person’s home and he did something which I really did not appreciate. It had to do with how everyone was seated. I had feelings of discomfort about this for sometime afterward but eventually it came to me that in a broader sense, I may share responsibility for some of the patterns of behavior which this person can still display. In other words, on a soul level, what patterns could I have participated in instilling which still come forth today? This doesn’t mean that if things were out of hand that I must allow it. It was just something I thought worthy of consideration for myself. I can identify with the fact that it can be very difficult to accept what karma brings due to the fact that what I experienced can feel so personal and it is hard to understand that karma is an impersonal energy dynamic. I have struggled with– how is it that it is impersonal when what I experienced was so personal? For a long time after beginning to read Gary and Linda’s books I could not quite distinguish that the Universe is compassionate (this I believed) but the karmic experience seemed to me to be a judgement from the Universe. Perhaps part of the dilemma inside of me was due to my own judgement of myself. For a while now, I have begun to see and understand karma better as being impersonal. It is making more sense now than it had before. I am decades from the abusive situation now and older and I can better understand, for myself, that if I had caused someone else to feel personally and up close and emotionally devastated such as I felt myself, then what I experienced was a perfect mirror image of the same. I couldn’t really learn from it if it wasn’t personal. It would be like learning something in school from a book and what a difference it makes to learn from an actual field trip! I AM there! I AM IN it! It’s sort of a “gift” from me,to me. Just try (when the pain is within) and you are remembering, that karma also brings gifts of Love and Joy when we have sent THAT package to ourselves. I have many issues of frightened parts in my life to challenge and overcome to date but perhaps letting go of what is difficult to comprehend and trusting the Universe is often the best way in the present—while waiting upon greater understanding to come as the growth process continues. I hope that this may be beneficial to some. I also am open to suggestion from others as to how can I share openly things which have been kept closed without harming other people and their relationships to each other? I want to seek healing within myself and to be of assistance to others as I may be able to. I don’t know how best to go about this. How does one completely heal if unable to share with others? I feel as though my life is sort of compartmentalized. There are parts that cannot be shared or at least only in certain settings or with (at best) just a very few people.

Hi Cindy, For me the most powerful healing comes when I set my intention to act from love. intention is the driving force for how the energy and power of any action revisits my life. Part of looking at my intention involves sharing and involving others in a responsible, conscious way. Do you have a copy of the Authentic Power Guidelines? They are available on the website. As I am better able to sit with my pain, and not want to look outside myself for validation, I am experiencing healing that I was not able to anticipate or even know to ask for. Something that I have heard Gary say many times, that I am a powerful, creative, loving being, has a deeper relevance in my life. My choice is not whether or not to create powerfully, but how I will create. – from love or fear. It sounds like you have been looking deeply into your life with the intention to heal. I applaud your courage. I hope to hear more from you as you gain clarity on your journey. Love and Blessings, Pam