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Topic: Need help changing my perspective from fear to love - Catherine Started 11 years, 6 months ago
Posted 12 years ago
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Last week, I went with some friends to watch the movie “Bless me, Ultima,” in a small cinema. I was sitting next to the isle, and on the other side was a spectator with a large bag of popcorn (or the like), which he continually dipped into, making lots of creaking plastic bag noises. He also drank from an extra-large soda cup with ice cubes, making just as much noise. At one point he sneezed several times and then sniffled loudly for minutes. There were only a few “blessed” moments of silence, when I forgot about his presence and got engrossed in the film. Otherwise, I perceived his presence and movements so intensely that I felt the need to “shield” my right eye and my right ear with my hand. I told myself that I would never again go to see a film in a theatre and would just wait for the releases of films on DVD. |
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Posted 12 years ago
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Hi Catherine, Amazing awareness and courage not to act on the fp that wanted to tell the person to be quiet. Could it be possible that beneath the fp that felt superior to him about the judgement of “slovenly” behaviour is another fp that feels inferior,perhaps jealous of him because he seemed to be ok with this behaviour of which you were taught not to find acceptable. Thank you for this supportive example of creating authentic power. |
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Posted 12 years ago
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Hi Catherine, Thank you for a powerful example that resonates with my own frequent thoughts of judging others. What has helped me gain clarity about this is seeing it thru the awareness of my soul, not my personality. And as I do this it becomes more and more clear to me what Gary defines as Authentic Power, aligning my personality with my soul. I’m wondering if the “digging deeper” is coming from a fp that says if I can’t understand it better, them I can’t challenge it as well. Even when I have been able to figure out the reason for my thoughts, that doesn’t do much to challenge the fp that was triggered. Who or what is seeing certain behaviors as normative or necessary? Sounds like a powerful opportunity for change. So appreciate your sharing, Love and blessings, Pam |
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Posted 12 years ago
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Thank you, Catherine, for sharing about your experience at the movie. I also have experienced some of the same reactions. As I am looking over the Spiritual Partnership/Authentic Power Guidelines, I am wondering which one you feel would support you most with this experience – and why. |
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Posted 12 years ago
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Thank you all so much for your responses, which I find very supportive! It’s likely that a fp felt envious of this spectator’s freedom just to be the way he was. I hadn’t considered this before. And now I wonder if my reaction might not be the recognition of something in me that a fp cannot accept. In other words, this freedom to make noise without apparent consideration of others could be a tendency within myself (mirrored by this spectator), which a fp would immediately condemn instead of letting me look at it in order to learn about myself. alternatively, this freedom could represent a loving part in me that a fp rejects and therefore condemns as “noisy” and “inconsiderate.” It is so much easier for me (fp) to judge others, and when I do that, I am also judging myself. There is a lot to learn here and I am not sure I have gained full clarity yet. Indeed, it’s an fp that sees certain behaviors as normative and necessary, because from the dispassionate perspective of the soul behavior inside a cinema is indifferent. It’s a fp that doesn’t recognize itself as fp. When I am caught up in such a fp, it can be so dominant that I can’t see the whole picture. I am mostly aware that there is a fp at work, but challenging it feels daunting because I am not sure where to begin or what needs to be addressed. This is why I found it helpful to look at my upbringing so that I could see my reaction from a distance. From the soul’s perspective, I can also feel compassion for the spectator and for “myself” who felt such painful distress. As for the Spiritual Partnership/Authentic Power Guidelines, I have read them over just now and am considering whether I have been using them to the extent that I am able to in order to learn about myself, to exercise courage (in posting about my experience), and to focus on compassion and conscious communication. I am going to sit with this experience and your words. With gratitude, |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Dear Catherine, |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Dear Nancy, |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hello Catherine and Nancy |
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Posted 11 years ago
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It’s good to read you, Leo. Thank you for connecting with us here. I also look forward to seeing you again at the Journey! |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hi Catherine, This is a very interesting post. I have often found myself in situations where I felt that someone was being rude. For example, I was at a workshop a few months ago, where the leader would go around the room and share what she intuitively notices about each person. It is always helpful to hear what she shares to everyone since we all share common experiences. One lady in the group, however, always starts up a side conversation after her turn is done, which I find very distracting (and irritating to f.ps of my personality). I started to feel the intense pain in my chest and solar plexus and noticed the judgmental superior thoughts. I knew that I had a frightened part active and did my best to feel it. I also saw that I had a wall up and was feeling distant to the woman. I chose to release that distance. After I did that, I checked in to see if it was appropriate to speak to her. I felt that it was and calmly told her that it was difficult for me to hear when she is talking. This also took a lot of courage on my part because I have frightened parts that want to be nice and not direct with people for fear they would reject me. The woman genuinely seemed surprised to hear that she may have been distracting people in the group. She quieted down and I think she appreciated my comment. I felt even more pain for a few minutes after sharing that with her, as the frightened part of my personality that needs to please started to calm down. In the end, I think I created authentic power that day, healing parts of my personality and also supporting someone else in seeing something that she doesn’t see. Love, David |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Thank you so much for sharing your experience of creating authentic power, David. Knowing that you were able to speak to this person is very supportive to me and I will remember it. In the experience I recounted here, I didn’t feel it would be appropriate to speak to the person in question, mostly because of the setting–it would have required getting up and moving to his seat in the middle of the theater while the film was being screened. I would have disrupted the audience. So the best I found I could do was feel the pain and be aware of the activated frightened parts, while attempting to release the distance I felt toward that person. In another setting, I will remember your experience to support me in developing the courage to speak from a healthy place of my personality (no accusation, no blame). Saying that it is difficult for me to hear or to focus on whatever I need to focus on is appropriate. I admire your courage in speaking to this woman from a serene place. |
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Posted 11 years ago
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David, Thank you for sharing your experience. I am CURIOUS. You said that you were feeling distance with the woman and chose to release that BEFORE you spoke to her, how do you think you we’re able to do that? Also, once you felt no distance toward her, what was your motivation for wanting to speak to her? Sincerely |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hi Soula, I noticed that I was feeling very irritated and having judgmental thoughts about the woman when she started talking. In the past, I may have just stayed angry, putting up an invisible wall with her. I decided that I didn’t want to stay in that energy and put that out to the group or to the woman. I decided to just to focus on my feelings and chose to change my perspective about what was going on. It was very painful in my chest, but I knew that what was going on was really about me and not the woman. After a few minutes, the pain started to subside and I felt I was in a calmer place. I no longer felt judgement towards the woman that was talking. I checked in again and felt that it was appropriate to say something to her and my intuition said I should be direct. I then had other frightened parts that didn’t want to stay anything. They thought that since I was feeling good now, what difference does it make, let it go (very familiar). Those frightened parts of my personality never want to say something to someone that might turn into some conflict or disagreement. I decided to challenge those frightened parts too and spoke to her. My intention for speaking to her was to say what I needed to say in the most loving way I could in that moment. With Love, David |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Thank you very much David. |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hi David, |
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