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Topic: Lightening up - Chi Started 10 years, 9 months ago
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hello spiritual partners! 😀 This past week, I’ve been distant with my family. Sorting through the contents of my consciousness, attempting to scan my body, reading and doing online course work made me look inward more than I ever have in my entire life. I found myself so afraid to speak lest I say something unloving that I rarely engaged in conversation and so worried about succumbing to criticism/judgement whilst watching TV (as I often did) that I stopped watching it altogether. I gave a whole new meaning to frightened parts of the personality, believe me! 😀 Last night my back, neck and shoulders were so tense and my entire upper body ached. My husband noticed my suffering and asked me to choose something on the Sky box that we could watch together. Reluctantly, I chose Despicable Me and as I watched it I laughed louder than I had all week and literally lightened up. My a-ha moment was two-fold: 2)The Universe used my husband – who is five-sensory – to help me realise that I can have fun on my journey to Authentic Power. |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hi Chi, I am glad that you were able to lighten up by watching a funny movie. Thank you for the reminder to remembering that I can choose to have fun as I create Authentic Power. In your sharing I was wondering, I thought I may noticed something that may have been a frightened part of your personality. I am curious, when you chose to watch the movie, what was your intention for watching? Did you watch so that you didn’t have to feel the pain of the FP that was active? Did you watch to please your husband because he was uncomfortable with your sitting with the pain of the frightened part? I am curious about the part of you that was reluctant to choose a movie. I ask because sometimes when I watch a movie when I have a strong, painful, frightened part of my personality active, its often a way to distract myself from feeling what is really going on so I don’t have to feel or focus on what is happening with me in that moment. I have had times when I watched movies with my husband to please him and to spend time with him when it was something that I really didn’t want to do which created distance that I was unaware of. Other times I watch a funny movies as a way to challenge that frightened part that does not want me to experience joy and happiness. Namaste, |
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Posted 11 years ago
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Hello Pamela and thank you for sharing your thoughts in response to mine. I’ve been thinking about the points you raised and I really don’t know what my intentions were. Whenever I’m about to act or speak, at the time, I think I know what my intentions are and then I begin to second guess myself. I try to scan my body but in the moment, I am unsure of the sensations in my body. This happens a lot where my husband is concerned. I am constantly aware that my intention may be to try to convert him and I am constantly torn between wanting to do that so that I do not have to face up to my pain and acting with loving intention so that I do not create negative or unpleasant karma. Your sharing has shown me that above all else, what I need to work on is emotional awareness with a particular focus on intention. It is so very important and is the cause that will lead to effect – negative or positive. |
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