I have set the intention to proactively cultivate the loving part of my personality that is patient, and to appreciate and acknowledge myself. This time of year my life offers me great opportunities. At work I am managing the year end deadline due in one week, and is a key part of my evaluation of my work performance. My teenagers are home(school starts in less than a week) and the house is not the way I want it to be when I get home. I have set the intention to feel these fps with the intention to heal. Last night I asked my angels for some clarity on the painful physical sensations of tightness in my throat, butterflies in my stomach, tightness in my shoulders. “What is going on in my life that I am feeling these fps of powerlessness? ”
This morning I remembered two of my dreams. One being of insects in my house and the other familiar dream that I was writing an exam for which I was not prepared for. This one I have often. Before getting out of bed this morning I was puzzled about the exam dream. Why am I having this one now? Things are going as planned to meet the deadline at work, do I still doubt myself? Tears came to my eyes as I felt my throat open and my shoulders relax when I realized that my meeting my deadline would mean to my fp that I am good enough and loved. I know that this is not true. This fp will never feel loved. I set a healthier intention for meeting my deadline at work. I went to google to find out what the insects in my house might mean for me. It said that they represent “minor obstacles that I have to overcome, that someone may be “bugging” me. That I feel i am being attacked.” “Alternatively, insects are symbolic of precision, alertness and sensitivity. You may need to organize your thoughts and sort out your values.” As I read this I had an insight from my childhood that when the house was not in perfect order my mother was miserable and this meant attacks of criticism from her fps. This meant I was bad and not loved. I set my intention to redefine MY values about the “order” in my house that is acceptable to ME. I felt the sadness in my heart and my shoulders relax more. I am so grateful to my angels for helping me see this and acknowledge myself for sharing.
With Love, Soula.