Hi Cindy, I’m not clear when you say “if it is given from my fear, then that is the form of Love in which I have chosen to give my gift….”. I do not believe that an intention driven by fear can accomplish anything Loving. When I act from fear, I generate energy that comes back to me as negative karma. Fear is the absence of Love. I may think I am acting from Love, but if I’m experiencing pain in any of my energy centers, then I know I am not. That’s when I look at the thoughts behind my action and the intention of those thoughts. Then I can make a responsible choice and consciously choose to act from love instead of fear. I like Gary’s analogy of throwing a ball in the air, and per the laws of the Universe, it will fall right back to where it originated. That’s how I understand karma. I talk with my very young grandchildren about throwing feathers or nails in the air, and which I would rather have land back on me. It is so good to hear from you. I look forward to seeing you again at the Journey. Blessings, Pam

Dear Pam and Kristen,

Thank you both for your responses. In response to Pam’s response, I am grateful for your sharing as I do not want to confuse anyone as I try articulating from deeper parts of myself. I am and was thinking of how Gary has shared with us that all is Love. So in saying that I chose that form of Love in which to give back to myself, (which would have been a choice actually to react from fear in myself and therefore you are correct to point out that I would have been responding to the fear by way of a choice FROM–a reaction to the frighened parts of my personality– fear), a better way to describe what I believe I was trying to say would be that I would be asking the Universe to give my gift back to me in It’s fashion of lovingly showing me what needs to be experienced by myself by way of allowing me to experience my own action coming back to me as a painful experience, so that I can see,(if I make the choice to look at and feel the pain instead of reacting unconsciously to it),the fear in myself which i need to challenge and learn to choose a more loving response in response to the pain. Fear is an absence–an ABSENCE of Love.
Okay. So to rephrase: If i choose to react to a painful karmic experience by allowing my fps to indulge themselves and I share and reflect my pain onto another person instead of acting responsibly and making a choice to respond to the experience from loving parts of myself and, thus, allowing myself to experience the pain so that I can understand it on a deeper level within me and make a choice to respond from Love, then I am asking the Universe to respond from IT’S Love and to offer me another chance to learn from by, (again), showing me what my choice from fear is really doing in the world and to others in my Life, or a Life to come.
Okay. It is still very wordy, but I believe this will help to better clarify what i really wanted to articulate.
I am grateful that you assisted me in this manner, Pam. Last evening as I was out at a discount store with a friend, I saw your email and read it and had an initial reaction of disappointment and wanting to throw in the towel somewhat of the work I’ve been doing spiritually in my life for some days now. I had sought the company of this friend because I have been working so hard spiritually that I felt I needed a reprieve by way of just having someone to talk with in the more familiar ways of communicating which I am used to. I needed a space from my deeper thought processes for a bit.
So I had eased back a bit, but when I read your response, initially I felt, “AH–I missed the shot again!!–I don’t know what I’m talking about(!), even though I was sure that I had been following the path which I need to follow to go deeper and create authentic power in my life and get to the core of what’s inside me, truly and work to find Love so that it can come forth and be expressed with others.
But I knew really, that I did not want to give up and when I rose this morning, I reconnected with my commitment before getting out of bed. And then i found Kristen’s response which encouraged me further as well.
And that is what cocreating in spiritual partnership is all about, right? Being truthful and assisting spiritual partners to see what they may not notice in themselves but may need to look at and encouraging the growth of Love in each other by also recognizing it in another and coming forth to let another know that as well.
Thank you both for assisting my growth in these manners. i am grateful for the ways in which you are expressing your growth as well and will return to read these agaiin.

I will try to keep up with the community board as best I can in coming days. Right now I have to attend to some matters in life in other areas and so will need to challenge myself to keep this inward opening open and growing.
I was reminded by my intuition last evening to pay a bill which was becoming overdue and there are others which need attention and also my nursing class summer homework and all kinds of other outward things which need attention. I requested of the Universe a few days ago to “pull out all the stop both from within and also from without” and so, blessedly, it is becoming thus.
An interesting multisensory thing occured this morning in that i had an intuitional moment concerning an extension cord in my home and the intuition, (Spirit), and I, it seemed very much to me, had really a brief conversation over it as my question was answered in me. It was a mundane matter but I think it may be reflective of my opening up, (I have been trying to do so in recent days with Spirit, intuition, and have been more conscious of this in my thoughts and so forth. There was a noticable difference this morning how it came across and so I am motivated to explore more with this. It was just an immediate connection and i was aware of a more live and live-in-the-moment sense of what was occurring as it unfolded. thought I’d share this with you.

Love, Cindy