Hi Rob,

It honestly has taken me 14 years to work through my sexual addiction. The freedom I now feel surpasses what I had hoped it could ever feel like. I often wonder if it will all just go away (FP). But my intuition doubts that will happen.

However, through my process my intuition told me that I could not maintain/get into a relationship while also having the addiction addictive. I could foresee the life doing so would create and I did not want that. As a result, I went a decade single. The isolation & loneliness (FPs) were so strong that I would often flip back to medicate with the sexual addiction. It was a sea-saw cycle. For me I had to work through layers of FPs. At the tip of the ice-berg was acting out sexually, below that loneliness, below that isolation, below that feeling completely inadequate as a man, below that feeling unworthy, below that feeling utterly unlovable.

There is one constant I have done for ~10 years. Every day almost with fail I have written a prayer in my journal. All I ever ask for is guidance & direction (never for the ‘missing keys’). “Imbue me with the courage to choose from love. Help me to see what I can’t see. Help me to do your will knowing that it is my will also (i.e. love).” It has never been the same prayer but always a similar theme. I also write them on paper so I have to be ‘conscious’ while doing it. I feel it helped me stay more open to my intuition. However, it did not negate the hard & long work of challenging my most deeply entrenched frightened parts.

Anyhow, I just wanted to share that.

Best of luck.

Eric

Hello,

One of the ways I am choosing to learn about the difference between my intuition and my fear is by looking back on certain major decisions in my life and how they came to be. One of those was marrying my husband of almost 22years. After a hurtful break up with a boyfriend whom my fps wanted to marry when I was seventeen my fps had made the decision not to be emotionally involved with another person. I dated my husband for several years before we got married and during this time there were many many times where my fps wanted to end the relationship. It was often a dream or a vision that would appear that would guide me in staying in the relationship with him. I can see now that this was my intuition guiding me. My intuition is there to support me in my spiritual growth. My partner’s role in this has been to activate fps of my personality such as those that want to be caretaken and for me to learn the difference between the need to be caretaken (fp) and my authentic need to be loved and cared for. One example was when I was contemplating signing up to go to my first “Journey to the Soul” retreat several year’s ago. My fps had good reasons not to go such as leaving my children and home for a week. It was my partner’s care and support for me that encouraged me to follow my intuition and go. Since that time I have activated many fps in him by bringing home and practising the tools I have been learning using the authentic power guidelines and the work done at the retreats. During this time his fps would active my fps that wanted to leave the relationship because “he was not my soul mate.” My intuition would direct me to seeing the loving parts of him that were slowly emerging at the same time I practiced creating authentic power. Such as, pausing instead of yelling or using “I ” statements when he spoke.In this process we have grown and the quality of our relationship has deepened in richness and aliveness more than I ever thought possible. This does not mean that it is a “bed of roses” it means that I have become conscious and choose to see the beauty of myself and him and our being together to support eachother in our spiritual growth. I am so exciting in learning more about the ways my intuition has helped me be the person I am today, and how I can use it much more actively and consciously in my healing.

Love, Soula

Rob,
The frightened parts of your personality that you mentioned, are they familiar? Have you felt this pain in your life before your partner? It is a joy to be in the Life School with you!
Love,
Kristen

Hello all,

Yesterday I began keeping a daily system using index cards for beginning a habit of invoking my intuition for spiritual growth. Here are a couple of things which I am using on those cards:

(1) The daily goal of letting go of being anxious about life and regretful about things from the
past.

(2) To practice daily staying in the present moment, especially when in the presence of others.

(3) I am asking my intuition to guide me in choosing a wise path for my future, (this includes
specific questions which pertain to my life)

(4) How can I do my best to support others spiritually and treat them well?
(a) Remember to ask within while with others
(b) Listen within
(c) Maintain my emotional awareness
(d) Ask them open questions which would support them, or make loving statements which support
them

With love,
Cindy