Hi Gail & Lori,
It would take courage for me to move my body, in some way no matter how small it seems, each day during the holiday season. It resonated with me today when Linda talked about frightened parts making excuses. I knew right away I’ve been allowing FPs to justify why I can’t exercise on this day. The past two months I’ve withdrawn from a regular exercise routine. I’m setting my intention to start again, without judgment.
with love, Jen

I am able to see more clearly a FP that I have that has been approaching Christmas the last several years from a FP of lack. Doing the opposite of consumerism. I have made conscious loving choices for my children to the best of my ability, however towards others, the FP thoughts are judging the consumerism more than I realized I was doing….a FP that feels superior to it. I feel this as a tightness in my upper heart, my solar plexus feels tight and pulled in, my lower back feels weak. The intention of the FP is for me to not share, to withhold and feel justified by the FP thought “why do we think people need stuff, no one really needs anything.” The deeper fear is that if I give, I will be without; and if I am without it’s possible for me to not be okay. With the intention of challenging this FP this year I have bought my mom and dad a gift when often I don’t, for example… to cultivate the loving parts of my personality that enjoy giving, finding something they may enjoy, and to cultivate giving & sharing. Believing I have enough.
Love,
Kristen

Hi all,
two lovely sps stayed on the call with me on saturday and supported me through a tremendous amount of fear that came up for me. my chest was pounding, and days later, it is still sore and I am wondering if that is because i stretched myself beyond, faced a fear that has terrified me all my life. that’s one question. my intention for conscious christmas is to let whatever happens be good enough. to let whomever i show up as to be good enough. to try not to judge how others are showing up. i am looking forward to both the exhausting christmas chaos with my family a couple days before, then a very quiet, peaceful christmas morning with just my kids in our sweet little house. well, that’s what i imagine, but i do not feel attached to however any of the the days turn out. i desire to be a witness of love to myself and my kids in all that may come up.

Hello Stephanie,
Thank you for your sharing; I really appreciated what you had to say. I’m wondering if the soreness in your chest could possibly be a fp that is still trying to become active. You said how much fear you felt and how courageous you were with the support of your spiritual partners. For me, when I am becoming aware of and focusing on healing a core fp, the physical discomfort or pain may be more intense for a while because I’m conscious of what is happening and am not giving the fp what it wants. It’s almost like the fp is having a temper tantrum, hoping to wear me down. I’m wondering if that’s why there is the soreness because the fp still wants to run the show but YOU have decided not to let it and to come from healthy parts.

I could feel your conviction and courage in what you wrote. Thank you for your sharing.

With love,
Amy

Happy New Year!
I’m curious how people were able to create a more Conscious Christmas. I would love to hear from the Community!

For me, I was with family that I only see once or twice a year. In the midst of a triggering conversation, I was able to feel the familiar frightened part that guards against what feels like attack. (Viscerally, it feels like a tight shield or armor appears across my chest when fps feel attacked.) It seems the person was in fear and felt justified… they weren’t open and just wanted to tell me how they felt. I focused on my internal response… How fps wanted to run, or defend, or explain… My fps response to what I perceived as the other persons’ anger and control was so familiar that I didn’t see until that moment how it would show up with anyone in my life that I perceived as angry and controlling/ manipulative. I’m sure this has affected my non-familial relationships as well as avoidance and care-taking aren’t my authentic nature. My habitual response is to walk away (avoid)or to ‘get them’ to understand what I meant (care take). This time, I just felt what was happening inside of me and how fps were afraid of this persons anger or other fps wanted to feel guilty/ responsible for how this person felt but I chose to feel compassion as I realized that it was really this persons choice and perception that was causing them pain, not me. I called on my intuition and Guides while I was standing there and felt guidance and clarity come to me in the midst of this experience. The person shared later that they could feel I was open.

Open… This year I intend to have an Open Heart, even when someone is in fear and not taking responsibility for it. I don’t have to stay and indulge fps too, but I also don’t have to take responsibility for their feeling or avoid them so the pain goes away. No longer will I let my Heart Close and let my fps judge the other person while I create distance. Staying Present and Open to myself and then to others (with the Guidance of my intuition) is something I will consciously continue to do as I heal this core fp.

As I’m writing this, I feel a lot of Love and Gratitude towards that person. My chest area feels expansive, cool and tingly. There is also Gratitude towards myself for my commitment to practicing this.

With much Love and Gratitude to this Community,
Amy