Hi Pamela and Cheryl,

This morning when I first woke, I was feeling such love and gratitude for my husband and our relationship. I then began to send this loving energy to him. I was aware, open and loving in a very deep appreciative way. Then I noticed he was awake and asked him what he was thinking. His response was that he was thinking how he feels he has to work around my schedule. I find that I had an expectation that he would feel the same love, gratitude, and appreciation that I was experiencing. I felt myself distance myself. I see I made a statement from fear – wanting to change him so that I would feel better. Your sharing has supported me to look deeply at what I can learn about myself and the cold shoulder I felt him giving me is actually coming from me when he didn’t respond as my frightened part wanted him too. He has given me another gift to learn about myself. It is so familiar for me to withdraw and to feel justified (fear). I thank you for being my spiritual partners and sharing your experiences thus supporting me to look at what I can learn about myself. I am choosing love!

Love to you both, Carol Ann

Hi Carol Ann,

What a powerful learning about yourself when you saw the cold shoulder coming from you when he didn’t respond as your fear wanted him to, rather than from him. Awareness. Thank you for sharing this.

With love… Cheryl

Hi Cheryl,
You are right-when I have fear some times it is intense and soemtimes it is suttle that all I can feel is slight discomfort. I also seem to notice a slight discomfort with or without fear. I am trying to pay attention to this discomfort. It is in my lower abdomen and stomach area. I seem to have it most of the time. The thoughts that are associated with this are regrets, feeling overwhelmed, afraid for no particular reason. My rational mind thinks that I must have had these thoughts and emotions for so long that I am still running them in the background. I seem to be acting through them some times and inspite of them sometimes.

Another interesting thing I noticed is that I need to slow down to feel this. This is really hard for me as I seem to be moving at a fast pace. I am slowly adjusting to feel and let go.

Thank you

Radhika

Hi Cheryl,

I wanted to share soemthing very significant that happened to me this morning. I was going to work with pretty intense abdominal discomfort inspite of my usual meditation. The discomfort eased up in meditation only to return later on. It was a feeling of fear associated with some work project. Stress has been very high at work lately. I knew the discomfort was because I was unsure of what might happen in the future and I couldnt trust that all will be well. When i cant let go I usually do a meditation where I imagine that I am no longer alive. This usually lets me let go of things that do not matter. I was still in discomfort but slowly it began to ease. I started to realize that the only thing that mattered was the love I shared with people around me and the love friendship i had received all these years. This was intense enough that I was crying. I made a committment to myself that I would start sharing meaningful things with people that speak from my higher self. That is why I am writing this. I am a little uncomfortable doing this with my familiar discomfort back but not as intense. I am usually very shy. I am obviously challenging my frightened parts of my personality.

Thsnk you.

Radhika

Hi Cheryl,

I thank you for your support. I am feeling overall better today. I noticed some loving sensations putting up the christmas tree with my children and buying gifts for Christmas. I also noticed frightening parts of my personality when I was talking to a relative. She said something I didnt like and I thought thats not right. I am able to understand that I will not be able to cooperate and share with someone if I am judging them. I did not act on these thoughts. Parts of my frightening personality want to keep judging and want to be correct. They are like wait a minute I like being this way. I am working on not reacting to them.

Thank you for listening.

Radhika

Hi Jenny,

The pain in the energy centers was very intense in the beginning. You are on the right path. It does ease up and get better with time. For me what was useful was to find out if there was reason why I was in pain. Its like an oninon I am finding layers upon layers of pain, fear, emotions and unconscious intentions in my self. It is interesting to know how little I know about myself. My suggestion is be gentle and loving to your self as you go inside. I used to think I was a perfectionist and I used to be very hard on myself. I am learning that the only way to venture into myself is by being gentle, kind and loving to this soul.

Sending loving intentions.

Radhika