Eric and Lori,

Thank you both for sharing your experiences of frightened parts of your personalities that feel like a victim. It supports me to hear how you are recognizing and challenging them. A spiritual partner supported me last week in seeing that frightened part in myself. I was surprised to hear it, but immediately knew that it true. I had just thought that I had a lot of stress in my life life lately which I interpreted as the seemingly endless supply of ‘problems’ that keep coming up that must be solved. I thought I had been emotionally aware because I was aware that my stomach felt like a burning block of cement 24×7. But after I received support, I started to realize that there is a story that is so familiar I barely even notice it. The story is that life is too hard. I can’t handle this right now. I need a break, etc. So, how have I been challenging it? Going back to basics, I am feeling even more, i.e. starting to scan and not just focus on the resistance of the pain in my solar plexus. Starting from the top of my head, to my shoulders, all the way down to the root. This is a challenge to the frightened parts of my personality because it means that I’m not believing the story that I don’t have enough time to scan my energy centers. It means that during those moments of scanning, that I’m choosing to believe that there is something more important than the problems that my frightened parts need to solve in order to feel safe. I still feel pain, and it still hurts, but the difference is that now it’s OK. This week, I have had a little more peace of mind and clarity and more energy to challenge it. My intention is to remember what I have been so easily forgetting and keep challenging this. Seeing clearly that I don’t have problems so much as that I’ve been choosing to see myself as a victim reminds me what I need to do.

With Love,

David

Greetings to all my spiritual partners, I’d like to share an “Aha” moment I had while listening to Gary talk about Karma during the call on Saturday. I was able to hear more clearly that Karma is about balancing the energy that I as a powerful, creative being expend as I live my life. Creating Authentic Power is the way I’ve learned to use this energy in a loving way, thereby creating positive consequences that nourish and enhance my life in the earth school. I heard Eckhart say that awareness is the emergence of intelligence that is not conditioned by the past. When I experience these aha moments it is like a new starting point that is pure and so wise. I set my intention to use this awareness to create from love. Namaste, Pam