Landing Forums Emotional Awareness Back to work after a day off

Emotional Awareness

Topic: Back to work after a day off - rheaabramson Started 12 years, 2 months ago

Viewing 5 posts - 1 through 5 (of 5 total)
Posted 12 years ago

Took a day off yesterday and work up this morning feeling intense pain in my chest. Spent an hour working on Mind of the Soul and now that I am in my office the pain is getting more intense. I don’t want to speak to anyone and I can feel myself lashing out at my boss in an upcoming 10:30 meeting. I know that some of this pain is caused because I consciously chose not to be on line yesterday and answer emails, opting to enjoy time with spiritual partners and my family. Normally I would silence FP of my personality to are fearful about not being at work by working when I am off. Those FP’s need to do everything for others to prove their worth here. Another FP is terrified to be back in this environment where everyone wants my time. I decided to choose a new path by posting here and next I am pulling out my guidelines and leaving them on my desk as a reminder to create authentic power. My intention for today is to feel what I am feeling and not to pursue external power.

Posted 12 years ago

Hello, Rhea. I can empathize with your feelings. I recently retired from a 33 year career as a teacher. School is beginning again tomorrow after the summer break, and I know that I would be feeling what you are feeling if I were also returning. It seemed to me that I could never be a good enough teacher and there was always so much more that I should be doing. It was all-consuming.
My eldest son, Joshua, was just married in Tofino, BC this past week. Although I was able to experience a sense of joy and wonder, I also felt profound regret that I had devoted so much of my time and energy to my job, and so little to building a spiritual partnership with my family while my sons were growing up.
I hope you stay on the path for building authentic power.

Posted 12 years ago

Hi Bruce,

Nice to see you on the message board. I was wondering if you are open to seeing your experiences as parts of your personality? Were you able to feel a difference in your body when you had thoughts of regret vs. thoughts of joy and wonder?

With Love,

David

Posted 12 years ago

Hi David,
Thank you for your welcome. I believe I am open to seeing my experiences as parts of my personality. Certainly the experience of regret is a painful one whereas experiencing joy and wonder is positive.

Posted 12 years ago

I think that will be helpful for you. I know that when I can make those distinctions, it helps me to detach and observe the feelings. Sometimes when I experience the pain and the thoughts of regret it can seem to take me over. I have other frightened parts that just wish I could’ve done things differently. When I can feel that pain and remember that this is a frightened part of my personality and an opportunity for me to heal, I then have some space to choose what I want to focus on in this moment.

Thank you for sharing.

Viewing 5 posts - 1 through 5 (of 5 total)

You must be logged in to reply to this topic.