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Topic: Back to work after a day off - rheaabramson Started 12 years, 3 months ago

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rheaabramson
Posted 12 years ago

Took a day off yesterday and work up this morning feeling intense pain in my chest. Spent an hour working on Mind of the Soul and now that I am in my office the pain is getting more intense. I don’t want to speak to anyone and I can feel myself lashing out at my boss in an upcoming 10:30 meeting. I know that some of this pain is caused because I consciously chose not to be on line yesterday and answer emails, opting to enjoy time with spiritual partners and my family. Normally I would silence FP of my personality to are fearful about not being at work by working when I am off. Those FP’s need to do everything for others to prove their worth here. Another FP is terrified to be back in this environment where everyone wants my time. I decided to choose a new path by posting here and next I am pulling out my guidelines and leaving them on my desk as a reminder to create authentic power. My intention for today is to feel what I am feeling and not to pursue external power.

Bruce Plante
Posted 12 years ago

Hello, Rhea. I can empathize with your feelings. I recently retired from a 33 year career as a teacher. School is beginning again tomorrow after the summer break, and I know that I would be feeling what you are feeling if I were also returning. It seemed to me that I could never be a good enough teacher and there was always so much more that I should be doing. It was all-consuming.
My eldest son, Joshua, was just married in Tofino, BC this past week. Although I was able to experience a sense of joy and wonder, I also felt profound regret that I had devoted so much of my time and energy to my job, and so little to building a spiritual partnership with my family while my sons were growing up.
I hope you stay on the path for building authentic power.
David
Posted 12 years ago

Hi Bruce,

Nice to see you on the message board. I was wondering if you are open to seeing your experiences as parts of your personality? Were you able to feel a difference in your body when you had thoughts of regret vs. thoughts of joy and wonder?

With Love,

David
Bruce Plante
Posted 12 years ago

Hi David,
Thank you for your welcome. I believe I am open to seeing my experiences as parts of my personality. Certainly the experience of regret is a painful one whereas experiencing joy and wonder is positive.
David
Posted 12 years ago

I think that will be helpful for you. I know that when I can make those distinctions, it helps me to detach and observe the feelings. Sometimes when I experience the pain and the thoughts of regret it can seem to take me over. I have other frightened parts that just wish I could’ve done things differently. When I can feel that pain and remember that this is a frightened part of my personality and an opportunity for me to heal, I then have some space to choose what I want to focus on in this moment.

Thank you for sharing.
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